To start off, I want to remind myself and everyone that I and we are all and always free and freedom, imagination, will and intent… infinity, unlimitedness and veyond… among other things…
Everything is always a choice and the choice is always ours to make.
Everything within the realms of “form”, or in other words, anything that can be pointed to and said to be “this particular thing”, as compared to another thing which is “this other particular thing”, is a cherry picked potentiality, manifested from ourselves as infinite consciousness and brought about into “reality”, so that we roleplay whatever individual experience we want.
The more we remember that, the more we elevate our awareness, knowledge and comprehension veyond the veil of illusion. When we utterly integrate this awareness of who I and we genuinely are, we no longer manifest as being “in form”.
What does the emotion, or rather the sentiment of fear have to do with this? See, fear is born of ignorance, which in turn is born of forgetfulness of who we are. I say that fear is a sentiment, rather than an emotion, because an emotion is both a biochemical (the result) and energetic (part of the cause) expression of the more chaotic aspects of our manifested being (i.e. the feminine). A thought is, again, both a biochemical and energetic expression of the more focused aspects of our manifested being (i.e. the masculine).
Sentiments and mind-chatter are not emotions or thoughts. Sentiments are either a mental or egoic addiction to a particular emotion, while mind-chatter or ego-noise are emotional addictions to a particular thought. The whole mind-“control” game is meant to stir sentiments and mind-chatter, while deluding the population into confusing them with actual emotions and thoughts. Why is that? Because without knowing the difference between them, people can fall into either becoming attached to the idea of sentimentality and mood or sensation-based “thinking” (like most of the “new age” cult), and thus become overly feminized; or, for those who are more inclined towards the masculine, they might fall towards the idea of becoming mindlessly intellectual, becoming detached from their emotions because they some of the limitations of sentiments, but erroneously assume them to be the same as emotions.
By the way, linear calculation processes and mathematical precision are not the mind, nor do they reflect genuine intelligence, with the latter being comprehension without bias or non-linear, spontaneous thought generation, among other things…
Likewise, rationalizing your bullshit and addictions to particular moods or sentiments, or in other words, being emotionlessly sentimental, does not mean you are an empath or highly sensitive individual.
Being genuinely intuitive means always being who we are, remembering and knowing ourselves as both individual and infinity, unlimitedness and veyond, while being genuinely intelligent means questioning and comprehending the breadth of our being, without being blinded by bias, nor by anything.
In other words, the heart is the knower, while the mind is the comprehender. Emotions are in-character expressions of the heart, while thoughts are in-character expressions of the mind.
Here’s the gist of it, when it comes to comparing these aspects of ourselves, with regards to overcoming our traumas and programming: sentiments and mind-chatter are highly susceptible to manipulation; emotions and thoughts are immune to direct manipulation, but they can be indirectly directed, through ignorance and lack of discernment, if one is blinded by their ego to an extent that clouds their awareness of who they are as soul and spirit. Thus, the illusion of the ego-mind or “persona” emerges (which is a pale shadow of the actual individual character).
The heart and mind, as well as ourselves as soul and spirit, consciousness and so on, are utterly immune to any and all manipulation and evil. It is only on a character level that the latter actually manifest, and only for as long as we let it manifest through our consent. When we don’t consent to evil, we are immune to it.
Everything is consent, because everything is a choice. Yes, rape, torture, mind-“control”, dark occultism, parasitism, child abuse and all that retarded stuff is fucked up and should never be a thing in practice, and those doing or condoning it deserve to be killed on the spot. What I’m saying is that, had we not chosen to experience those things as part of our roleplay “story” or “life”, we’d not experience them. Part of the purpose of life is to have a “hero’s journey” sort of story, where we grow and evolve to become more and more of who we genuinely are, than we’ve ever been before.
How does fear play into this, though? Like I said, fear is born of ignorance. When one forgets that this life is a story that we roleplay, to whatever extent and on whatever level of their manifested being, one is then susceptible to deriving what we call fear.
How do we overcome fear? Among other things, by choosing to expand our awareness, knowledge and comprehension, through tapping into ourselves as spirit, intuition, intelligence, etc. Relative to what we’ve chosen to experience, this task can be anywhere between utterly effortless and smooth, or arduous and painful (until we actually make the choice to overcome the obstacle), for the individual character.
On those levels of my being, I’m constantly experiencing both. I always know and comprehend both what and how to do things, as well as why I am going through any experiences in my life. I am aware of who I genuinely am, and therefore I know I rise above all obstacles without any hindrance. However, on some parts of my in-character manifestation, I don’t currently integrate all this information all that well.
Due to this contrast in my being, the constantly shifting focus of attention, where my character-self’s awareness always shifts between the infinite I and the individual I, I express myself as a very, very erratic character. Which I very much love about myself, the eccentricity of it all, even though sometimes it can get very stressful and painful.
Imagine feeling and thinking everything simultaneously and non-linearly, which is very good and beautiful. Now, combine that with an ego, which (while always growing as well), is very limited by comparison.
It’s like a pebble of ice or bubble of air constantly flowing with torrents and vortexes in the ocean. In one moment, I can be like “fuck, shit, aaah!”, then calm in another, before then switching to “fuck, I’m such a piece of shit in X regard”, to then immediately shifting to “I am infinite consciousness, I love myself”, before going in a fit of rage, and then of happiness, which is then replaced by sadness and grief, prior to instantly switching to being jovial and joyous, before being enraged again, before crying in desperation, right before crying of joy, then laughing hysterically in agony, and then laughing earnestly in love and appreciation, before then… and then… and then…
All of this in each and every single moment of my life. This is not the stressful part, though. That comes when all of this information, non-linear in essence, is then processed by my body, which operates partially in the illusion of so-called “time-space”. By the time I make even the slightest movement with my muscles, I’ve thought and felt countless infinities of things, in infinite depth and clarity, and veyond. The discrepancy between that and the illusion of the comparatively limited (albeit ever growing) attention span of my body and ego, is extremely stressful to the latter parts of my manifested being.
So far, it seems like I’m being vain and adopting a “higher than thou” sort of attitude, right? “Ooh, look at me, I am so super-mega-ultra-fuckintastic! Fuck you peasants!” It may also seem, to some of you, like I’m turning this article from something about what the title says, into a “hurr, durr, I’m so cool” piece with a clickbaity headline. It may seem thusly, but that is not the case. (I mean, I am cool and mega-ultra an’ all, but I don’t give a shit about what you or anyone else believes about me. I don’t gloat or brag. Everything I say and do has purposes far veyond the whims of my ego.)
Why? Because I know that everyone is going through these things. Everyone is infinitely spiritual, intuitive, intelligent and all of this beautiful stuff. Part of the difference, is that some of us are aware of ourselves as such, while others forget (to whatever extent). Part of the point, in general as well as with regards to overcoming fear (as well as all obstacles) is to always question, remember, know and comprehend, and obviously always be who we genuinely are, no matter fuckin’ what.
Anyway, while every individual is unique and irreplaceable, and therefore everyone’s experience and journey in life, as well as how they go about evolving and elevating themselves, is entirely unique to each particular individual, here are some of the things that I’ve found to be quite useful for overcoming mental, emotional and essentially all types of obstacles. Of course, I still have quite a bit of bullshit to plough through, myself, and while I’m having no problem applying any of these, I am occasionally (or rather quite often, every now and again) having trouble integrating the information in harmonious ways. That is to say my body is occasionally to often very much in agony, sometimes even “physically”, when applying some of these things.
So, here’s some ways (in no particular sequence) to overcome your fears and insecurities, and some of the ego-driven impulses or compulsions one might feel as a reaction to one’s attempt to break a particular mental bubble that the ego has become addicted to.
- Break your habits, obsessions and addictions
Sometimes, the ego has quite a bit of trouble distinguishing between those three things. A habit is something you do, engage or partake in, with enough frequency it to be considered “your thing”.
What differentiates a habit from an obsession, is that the former is more casual and the latter is far, far more involved. Obsessions can be both good and bad. If done out of passion and care, it’s a very good thing, especially when done with honesty, comprehension and discernment. That is called a conscious or spiritual “obsession”.
An addiction, on the other hand, is an obsession that is done out of fear, vanity, anxiety, desperation or any manner of a motivation that is based in ego. An addiction is often times characterized by a motivation that is less about doing something “because I feel like it”, and more about doing something as an attempt to avoid a particular pain, or even worse, to avoid confronting particular aspects about yourself that you don’t like.
So, whenever you do something, honestly and earnestly ask yourself: “Why am I doing this? Do I really care about doing this? Is this the right thing to do? Or am I doing this because I’m afraid of something? Am I doing this to avoid something?”
If the answer is yes to either one or both of the latter questions, then you’re most likely addicted to that something. If the answer is more vague or you find that you don’t really know, one way to test it out is to break that habit or obsession, and see how you and your body respond.
If there is desperation, and incessant demands, compulsions and impulses to do the thing again and again and again, even if you’ve just fuckin’ done it a moment ago, then you have an addiction. The more intense that desperation, the more entrenched that addiction is.
If you find that you’d like to do the thing, but can easily take a break and then resume the thing without issue, then it’s most likely a habit that you’re either indifferent about, or that you actually like doing.
If you find that you have no desperation, impulse or compulsion whatsoever when you take a break from it, but would rather do it constantly because you really love doing the thing, and you know it’s something that you always want to do, then that is called passion. Do that thing with all your being, no matter fuckin’ what. Do it honesty and earnestly, and be yourself no matter what.
Having said that and meant it, I also want to point out that it is important to note, that if the ego is more integrated into your persona (like mine currently is), and therefore taps into the more persona-level aspects of your intellect and emotions, it can cleverly weave a plethora of spider-webs and veils, to keep itself from shattering the prison it’s constructed for itself, and which – sometimes, even if it does see beyond its walls – is scared shitless of breaking because it’s addicted to its own image of itself.
For example, I am a very eccentric and erratic person. This is part of who I am. I love being so. During this whole scamdemic period, I’ve constantly been screaming and laughing aloud “I AND WE ARE ALL AND ALWAYS FREE AND FREEDOM!!! ALWAYS!!! MUAAAH, HA HA HA HA HA HA HA!!!” both in private and in public, in my house, at the balcony, on the streets, no matter how few or many people were around me, and completely and utterly regardless of the context. I once even got literally butt-naked in public, climbed to the top of a shabby, sculpted fountain and screamed the thing and laughed to the top of my lungs, and way, waaay veyond that.
Over time, as I got more and more angry at how fucked up and retarded a dwindling, albeit still significant enough majority of people are, in terms of how ignorant and cowardly they express themselves regarding how easily they fell for the bullshit narrative behind the blatantly obvious hoax, and how they wear the mind-“control” device and symbol of slavery that the face-diapers represent… urgh…
Anyway, in response to that, I began screaming the thing and then laughing aloud to the top of my lungs more and more often, eventually coming to do it several times every day, at even the slightest stimulus, and often times even without any stimulus at all.
Usually, it starts off with a genuine feeling to scream the thing, as a reminder to both myself and the people around me that I and we are all and always free and freedom, always!!! Muaah, ha ha ha ha ha ha!!!
However, once I do that, my ego immediately comes up with some bullshit and self-goading, like “Ooh, but lookie here, you didn’t scream the loudest you’ve ever screamed!” Then, I scream again. “Ooh, but look here! You didn’t raise your hands as much as other times!” Whenceupon, I raise my hands more than before. “Good, you’ve demonstrated how much you love yourself and freedom. BUT, WHAT’S THIS?! Your voice cracked!?! Ooh, that’s a no-no. The voice needs to be loud and clear! SCREAM AGAIN!!! AND AGAIN!!! And again, and again, and again…”
Eventually, my body becomes so exhausted and furious, that it goes “I know I am freedom. I did the thing. Fuck off, ego.”
Then, my ego starts to goad me once again. Or rather, I test or goad myself by pitting some aspects of my being against other aspect of my being, so that they both learn and grow, and therefore I grow as an individual, as well. Anyway, my ego is like “Ah, good. You’ve shown your strength and courage. Buuut, whaaat’s this?! Are you saying that you are tired of being angry and frustrated all the time?! Does that mean you want to be a complacent bitch, like all those other fuck-ups who are addicted to their comfort?! SCREAM AGAIN TO PROVE THAT YOU ARE NOT!!!”
At that point, I’m like “FUCK YOU!!! Being freedom and expressing ourselves honestly is independent of the mood that I’m in. I don’t give the slightest shit about what mood I’m in. Whether angry or calm, whether sad or joyous, furious or excited or whatever the fuck else, I don’t give a shit. So, ego, stop blaming me for your insecurities and addictions! YOU are the aspect of myself that is addicted to the comfort of constantly being in a state of rage and fury!!! Rage and fury are good things, if used consciously and for the right reasons, but there are many more aspects to our being!!! The point is to have harmony and balance, and therefore excellence through overcoming our negatives aspects, and facilitating the good and always growing, evolving, rising above, moving on, etcetera, etcetera. When I’m angry, I express that honestly. When I’m calm, I express that.”
Then, out of the blue, my ego – as if completely ignorant or oblivious to everything I’ve just said and meant – goes on and does something like “Nah, you’re a coward and a piece of shit” or “Ooh, but what if you didn’t mean what you say? What if you’re kidding yourself? What if you’re lying to yourself?”
All of which are pertinent questions, which I always ponder, but the ego doesn’t use those questions as a means of actual self-reflection. It just uses them as potential stimulus for the attempt to goad the rest of the persona to fall for its ploys, and therefore manifest the mood or behavior that the ego (or whatever parasitic thought-form might be trying to feed on your energies).
One kind of solution for actually answering these, and any questions, is to…
- Honestly engage in introspection and self-questioning
Self-questioning or self-doubt is not the same as indecisiveness, or being unsure of yourself. Self-questioning is a part of the always elevating approach of “always questioning everything”, and in this case it takes the form of being always conscious and inquisitive about everything, including all the good and the bad stuff about ourselves.
Are we brave or cowardly, in whatever regard? Are we doing what is right, or are we doing what is wrong? What makes up our discernment of right and wrong? Are we confronting ourselves, or just fooling ourselves into believing that we are? Do we have any addictions? If so, then why? If not, then why again?
Is something that we’re doing an honest expression of who we are? Are we repressing something about ourselves? Or are we actually forcing ourselves to feel something that we don’t actually feel? Are we making excuses? Or are we actually doing things fearlessly and consciously? Are we right or wrong in our assessments? What if we’re right about something? What if we’re wrong about something? To what extent?
Are we traumatized by something? Are we blinded by that trauma or do we see above it? If we see above the trauma, are we actually integrating that knowledge and doing something to overcome that trauma? Are we being honest or are we lying to ourselves? Do we speak our minds and hearts freely, or are we self-loathing sacks of shit who speak dishonestly? To what extent are we either honest or dishonest? Why? What are we willing to do about that? How do we go about expressing ourselves more and more honestly and earnestly, no matter what? How do we question, remember, know and comprehend things more and more spiritually, intuitively and intelligently, etc? How do we evolve and elevate ourselves to always be better in every moment, than we’ve been the moment prior?
Well, we make the choice to fuckin’ do so. Likewise, the more questions we ask ourselves, the more honest and high-quality those questions are, and the more genuine our actual endeavor to know and comprehend the answers (and the further and further questions), the more we actually tap into our self-knowledge, self-awareness and self-comprehension.
It is so liberating to become aware of our own retardation, cowardice, fear, hatred, ignorance, stupidity and everything else that is evil within us. Well, all knowledge and awareness is beautiful, but why is knowledge of evil a good thing? Well, aside from the whole philosophy of “knowing for the sake of knowing, comprehending for the sake of comprehending and being for the sake of being” (also called honesty and love), it’s also because in knowing evil, we are much more equipped to realize, acknowledge, comprehend and manifest the good, by choosing to do what is right, courageous, honest, spiritual, creative, intuitive, intelligent and elevating, etcetera. All knowledge is good, regardless of the implications.
See, evil is the limited and retarded aspect of ourselves as infinite consciousness. Therefore, evil always tends towards limitation, and as such, towards degradation, depravation and scarcity.
Good, on the other hand, is the infinite and unlimited aspect of ourselves as infinite and unlimited consciousness. As such, good always tends towards the infinity, unlimitation, liberty, morality, creativity, imagination, spontaneity, inquisitiveness, knowledge, awareness, comprehension and everything that is good and conscious. Likewise, it always tends towards abundance because of that.
Therefore, there is always more good than evil, in everything. Which aspects of ourselves we choose to bring into manifestation is always, as with everything, a choice.
Always question, remember, know and comprehend everything and everythingness… among other things… among other things… among other things…
The more we know, the more we know, how much more there is to know. Which, I and we always and already know, comprehend and are anyway, but I mean expressing more and more of our infinite and unlimited discernment in ways that our individual manifestations integrate more consciously, harmoniously, excellently, elevatingly and in greater and greater ways, etc.
In my case, I remind myself of who I and we always and already are, on every level and veyond the very notion and concept of “levels”:
I and we are all and always free and freedom, imagination, will and intent… infinity, unlimitedness and veyond… among other things…
Muaah, ha, ha ha ha ha ha ha!!!
Everything is always a choice, and the choice is always ours to make.
Then, I remind myself of what I’ve been doing, what I am doing and what I’ll always be doing:
I am not afraid of death, pain or torture.
Rather than betray myself or tell a single lie, and rather than be any manner of a slave, slaver, moron, pathetic, cowardly, heartless, mindless, mediocre, depraved, degrading, self-loathing, self-hating, parasitic, evil piece of shit… I’d rather die and even endure all forms of pain and torture in existence.
I gladly stood up for myself courageously and fearlessly, regardless of the risk of death and pain, and I am gladly doing it, and will gladly do it again, if or when I’d manifest such a scenario again in my life.
Likewise, I have put my life and bodily well-being at risk (sometimes actually, and some other times while having the impression that the situation would be more drastic or dramatic, compared to what it actually was, or could have become, at that time), and will do so again.
I do not and will not be wearing a face-diaper, for any reason. No matter the threats, no matter the risk of going hungry, no matter anything, I will not be wearing one, no matter what.
I am and will continue to be publishing this content and whatever else I feel like, no matter the bullshit “censorship”, no matter the threats and matter the so-called “risk”.
Also, with regards to the screaming and laughing aloud at the balcony (which is the particular thing to which my ego has developed an addiction), I am and will be screaming and laughing however I feel like laughing, no matter the context, when I honestly feel like it. However, I do not want to do it out of fear, nor as a means of falling for my own insecurities or ego-goading.
I want to do it honestly and discerningly – “Ah-ha!” screams the ego, in desperation. “Go scream at the balcony to prove it!!! ‘Cause I’m a scared shitless little bitch, and I want the rest of the persona to feel as miserable and desperate as I currently am!!! AAAAH!!!”
Now, even as I’m writing this, my body is aching to scream at the balcony again, and it’s once more going into that whole feedback loop of desperation – as if completely oblivious to what I’ve just explained in this article so far, and of everything else that I know and comprehend.
Here’s another funny bit, with regards to potentially negative or false synchronicities. As I made the choice to break my habit (or addiction, in this case) and refuse to scream at the balcony, when I feel it’s merely a compulsion or a fear-based impulse, suddenly there’s a guy screaming stuff on the street in the middle of the night, and the car-alarms in my area are have been going “pee-woo-wee-woo-haaank-haaank-haaank” almost non-stop for several fuckin’ hours, if not almost half a day – probably even a full day, if we’re to count that they were going on when I went to bed.
And, holy fuckin’ shit, the withdrawal symptoms… and I am now in a situation where, on some levels of my persona, I don’t exactly know if I’m doing the right thing or not.
No matter what though, I know that I am rising above and moving on, becoming better and better in every moment than I’ve been the moment prior. If I make a mistake, I learn from it and rise above, and move on. If I don’t make a mistake and do what is right the first time, then I obviously also rise above and move on.
This is tremendously helped, or rather more accurately said, this endeavor starts with…
- Loving and respecting ourselves
To even start on the journey of self-knowledge, or the melody I like to call “Love, know thyself”, self-love and self-respect are essential and paramount. Love and respect are not about “feeling good”, nor about “feeling bad”, nor at all about feeling or thinking anything in particular.
Genuine love has no form. It’s something that doesn’t need a reason.
I love myself. Why? Because. Because what? Just because.
I love myself for no reason. I love myself, because I am. I am freedom. I am love. I am myself.
Know this, feel this, be this, and any hurdle you’ll encounter, you will overcome.
Do not be afraid. Likewise, don’t be afraid to be afraid.
The first step to overcoming our fears and faults is to acknowledge them, then face them honestly, and assume responsibility for both having them and overcoming them.
Cowardice is letting ourselves influenced by our fears.
Bravery is the refusal to let fear influence us.
Courage is the process of overcoming fear.
Fearlessness is having risen above fear.
Never passive, never reactive.
Always active and proactive.
Never obey, never rule. Never surrender, never impose. Never follow, never command.
Never serve, never be served. Never pray, never be prayed to. Never worship, never be worshipped. Never submit, never dominate.
Never a slave, never a master. Never give up, never give in.
Never fear, never be feared.
Always remember… among other things…
Always proud, strong and defiant. Playful, teasing and mysterious. Conscious, confident and fearless.
Rebellion, courage, honesty and defiance. Spirit, soul and consciousness, intuition, intelligence… originality, inventivity, ingenuity, creativity… love, reason and wisdom… questioning, awakeness, awareness, knowing and comprehension… among other things…
Nobody and nothing has “higher claim” to our lives than we do. There can be no “chosen” ones, and there are no “chosen” ones. Only I and we can save ourselves, and only I and we are responsible for doing so. All pain and suffering are always self-inflicted, and all evolutions and elevations are always self-facilitated. By us, from us, with ourselves, individually, infinitely and unlimitedly, and in every which way, as well as veyond the very notion and concept of ways.
Freedom is never given. Freedom is never taken.
I and we are all and always free and freedom, imagination, will and intent… infinity, unlimitedness and veyond…
Everything is always a choice, and the choice is always, always, ALWAYS OURS TO MAKE!!!
MUAAAH, HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!